Almost from the day I got my walking cast on, I was
previsualizing what would happen. Just
like I used to do before hockey games, when I would stand out by the rink and previsualize
what was going to happen and what I was going to do. It seemed to work well in game situations and
I think I always played better when I did it.
I told anyone who would listen what was going to happen when I was given
clearance for weight bearing. I told my
son, Karl about it and he paid me a great compliment by saying, “all good
athletes do that”. I thanked him for believing
I was an athlete.
Anyway, I was lying in bed and was losing muscle mass by the
minute, but I didn’t realize I was also losing fat, which was a good
thing. I kept saying that as soon as I
could get up walking that my muscle mass would start to rebuild, because I
would be up and walking around the hospital regaining my strength. More on this, or at least the reality in
another chapter.
I had numerous scenarios in my head of getting up and
wandering around the hospital. I did it
after each of my three knee surgeries, so why should this be any different? My Doctors, Nurses and Physiotherapists tried
to tone me back a bit by telling me not to get too far ahead of myself. Here I was breaking my cardinal rule of just
living one day at a time. Here I was
thinking ahead.
No matter which scenario I went through, I visualized it to
be a successful conclusion, with me getting up out of bed and immediately being
able to walk around the hospital. Maybe
even outside, where I hadn’t been since July 8 and here it was late July. I was figuring on being released by July 31
and putting an end to this lengthy three weeks stay in hospital. Little did I know, this was a pipe dream at
best. I had no clue that I would be
there for another 5 weeks. Oh well, as
they say, “ignorance is bliss”.
Meanwhile the days kept passing and the visitors kept
coming. I was using cellular data to
access Facebook to keep up to date and post updates of my own. Then suddenly I got a notice from Telus
telling me I had burned through my “massive” 1 gig of data. I had no clue about this either as I rarely
ever use data. Most of the time I’m
connected to WIFI, either at home or the WIFI in my truck through OnStar.
Speaking of the truck, and possibly a premonition of what
was coming. When I headed up to the lake
on June 22, I had my iPhone connected to the Apple play stereo I had installed
in the truck earlier in the year. I was
listening to TSN 1040 the sports talk shows all the way to Kamloops. On my old radio, the signal would die just
before Chilliwack.
Just as I was making the turn off the highway on to the
Yellowhead highway, on the last leg of the trip to Barriere. I decided to switch to my music library on
the phone. I told Siri too play my music
library shuffled. The first thing out of
the speakers was my Mother’s voice. She
said, “I just don’t know when I will be back from the lake this year”. More prophetic words could not have been
said, and it gave me chills to hear her voice, especially this close to the
cabin. Mom passed away in 1992.
The stranger part of this is that while I have several sound
bytes of my Mother speaking, they are stored on my desktop computer at home and
my laptop which was in the back of the truck and turned off. There is not one sound byte from my Mother on
my iPhone or iPad. So where did the
voice come from? As I mentioned earlier,
my Mother came to visit me when I was first brought into Kamloops Hospital. So, here I was with absolutely no idea when I
would be released from hospital and conversely, when I would be home from the lake.
The days continued to pass, and I continued to dream about
getting out and getting home. I expected
to be weak and I expected to need rehab before I would be able to get back on
the ice. I even expected that I might
end up missing a whole season, but it’s a little disappointing when the truth
smacks you hard in the face.
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